fuck

why does it feel like everythings just crashing down on me. i feel like im letting my emotions get the best of me. im doing stupid things and getting in trouble. i cant believe i got caught taking out the car ... im such a big hypocrite... i say i wont ever do stupid shit like that and now here i am, my parents dont trust me anymore. im messing up in school slightly as well. i was doing so well like last month. i felt like my connection with God was so high and i didnt need anything else. i need to start thinking like that again because now im gettingfurther away from God and everything seems to be coming down on me. FUCK temptation, the devils a bitch! seriously wtf im so stupid. friday was so goood. she makes me happy and i dont know what i did cause im texting her and she's not replying, i mean she replied but ughh idk. i stopped talking to different girls and i just want this one! i hope she knows who she is. anyways i finally broke things off with missy like were pretty good now i guess whatever. fuck, shes not even replying to me, i hope i didnt do something stupid... seriously girls are insane they think way too deeply and they overthink things making life so much harder. and then us guys on the other hand are jerks, were straight up assholes cause we can never make up our minds and this fucks with every girls head i know forsure. i just want her to text me already ....