jan 29

today was a whatever, i thought i had pink eye but it went away. its been so tiring lately, its getting hotter and hotter each day. i had tennis practice today and it sucked. i played like shit and on top of that coach doesnt seem to like me very much. oh well its what i get for not practicing much over summer.

my aunt and uncle are the nicest people on earth, they support me so much, they push me to do my best and i'm quite lucky to have them in my life. life seems so hard and im so lucky to have amazing friends and family that love me.

so i was talking with aileen earlier and she seems so happy talking to this one fool, who evidently looks like me -___- haha. that feeling feels sooo good when you get that "click vibe" with someone. im sick of love, at the very moment i accept things for what they are and although it seems that love keeps on playing hide and seek with me i feel somewhat better that the game just ended and im back to counting and finding someone.... i think i might even just wait and hide a bit so that i wont be the seeker...


God is love

my first blog :)

hello i'm jonathan san luis and i'm at noob at blogging!

finally, my first blog. i've told myself constantly that, "today is the day that i'm going to start blogging!" and finally the day is here. so my story goes somewhat like this... i have the best best friend that you could ever imagine and her name's aileen :). well anyways i've read her blogs from time to time and i've always felt motivated to start expressing my feelings. yup, so here it is...

well lately i've gone through some tough times and well even though i know i have the greatest friends out there, who are willing to listen to my shit, i still feel like i need some other outlet for all these emotions built up inside of me. there are so many things going on right now in my life from school to sports then from girls to family and so on and so on. sometimes i just feel like
getting a tennis racket to start swinging away at my problems.

school has been so tough on me lately and this is suppose to be my hardest year! i still have to prepare for SATs, ACTs, and APs. it perturbs me sometimes, how some of my friends seem to think im pretty smart when in reality they are just as intelligent as i am. i think that my sarcasm seems to trick people into thinking im pretty smart.

well anyways not only is school a big problem but i think that someone really amazing just walked out of my life. sometimes i just stop and think about that person constantly up to the point where i start getting angry at myself because i cant get that person out of my head. its really getting to me. i know that even though this person is really special that i somehow need to move on. i know that i'm a handful myself and that sometimes it seems that i don't want to be around that person but really i just don't want to hurt them by saying something stupid. its not fair, i feel like we dont respect each others feelings. maybe it was meant be so that we can learn to be more patient and not base love off of things we feel that couples should do. i guess i have to admit though that this was mainly my fault. the feeling of talking on the phone started to runaway and i guess that i just didn't try as hard anymore... i could have changed but when i started trying to change i just got put down even more. i'm going to miss that person so much, it hurts even to try and talk about them because you can't help but think of all those times they made you smile and made you feel better...too bad were maturing and GOD has different plans for us.

anyways, i'm getting tired of writing so i'll end things by talking about my day. my day was tiring, good, bad, and good again. so i guess my day was alright.





GOD BLESS
&
GOODNIGHT! :)